A Confession from Interior Darkness

I've started writing poetry whenever I feel sad, lonely, and insecure.  After praying my rosary yesterday afternoon, I was inspired to write the following verses.  Maybe some readers can relate.

A Confession from  Interior Darkness (An Original Poem)

Dear God, please forgive me;

For what I have done.

I've treated people badly;

With instincts to run.

Run away from guilt;

For the harm that I've caused.

I'm so ashamed of myself;

I wish I had paused.

To think before I acted;

Been kind, merciful, and loving.

But instead I behaved wrongly;

Not at all becoming;

Of a woman created in your image;

Your likeness and your love.

I desire to correct my sins;

With guidance from above.

I pray to you, My Dear Lord.

Wipe away this jealousy;

That haunts my mind and heart;

And stirs up animosity.

I wish I was younger;

More attractive, smart and devout.

I see this in others;

And then I begin to doubt.

Why was I born?

What's my purpose on earth?

Nobody seems to notice me;

What am I worth?

Am I a precious emerald;

Prized for its rarity?

Or am I a fake gemstone;

 Only worth a penny?

You see beauty in me, Lord

Why do I see ugliness?

I know you love me, Lord.

Why do I feel worthless?

I pray for the courage

To tackle my insecurities;

I pray for a positive attitude;

That will change my priorities.

No longer do I drown

In self pity and shame.

Lift the heaviest cloud;

Dragging me down in pain.

Most of my inner thoughts

Keep me feeling low;

But the gentle Words of God;

Begin a radiant glow;

Warming my heart, soothing my mind;

Greatly infused with love;

Love so healing and so perfect.

It impossible to unplug.

This light so bright;

It gives me hope;

This light so bright;

I can cope!

No more  darkness;

to ruin my soul;

Christ is present;

I'm never alone.

-J.