My hiatus has come to a short end. I simply can't stay away from writing any longer! Words and thoughts flow through my veins like a flowing river. A pile of sticks constructed of weakness, fear and insecurity can't stop the deluge. A solid dam made up of wisdom, intellect, and courage keeps it steady and constant without destroying the surrounding landscape.
God is calling me to write; he's calling me to share my thoughts on spirituality no matter if some people like my style or not. I can't please everyone's taste. But, if I simply disappear and don't at least try to help others on their personal journeys, am I really being a good Christian witness?
We all battle struggles to the point where we feel like giving up. Depression and anxiety are awful feelings. They make us think that nobody wants us or loves us on this earth; they make any small form of criticism hard to take; they make us "assume" that people think a certain way about us. Perceptions are so often warped and skewed.
This is where Our Lord comes to the rescue....
The day after I wrote my post titled "Hiatus" I received an email from PrayMoreNovenas.com. It so happen to be Day One of The Novena to Saint Michael the Archangel for healing and protection. Wow, I was looking for a "sign" if I should continue this blog and there it was in my inbox. Along with the novena prayer came along a couple of tweets from blog followers, encouraging me to continue writing. What a wonderful blessing!
One of my bands I listen to when I experience melancholy is Depeche Mode. In my Amazon music collection I found an old song from the 2007 "Ultra" album that I haven't heard in years. These past three days I've listened to it over and over again. It's helped me mentally process through some thoughts. I think God reconnected with this treasured song in a special way. The lyrics have a much different meaning to me personally compared to what the band wrote about.
Here are the lyrics:
"Insight"
This is an insight
Into my life
This is a strange flight
I'm taking
My true will
Carries me along
This is a soul dance
Embracing me
This is the first chance
To put things right
Moving on
Guided by the light
And the spirit of love
Is rising within me
Talking to you now
Telling you clearly
The fire still burns
Wisdom of ages
Rush over me
Heighten my senses
Enlighten me
Lead me on
Eternally
And the spirit of love
Is rising within me
Talking to you now
Telling you clearly
The fire still burns
I'm talking to you now
The fire still burns
Whatever you do now
You've got to give love
The world still turns
I'm talking to you now
The fire of Christ still burns in my heart. The Spirit of His Love protects me in times of struggle and doubt. He quietly communicates with me through people, places, and sometimes "random" instances. I ponder His message in my mind. Sometimes I'm a little "slow" at interpreting the meaning. However, my conscience usually leads me on the right path.
So for now I carry on with my blog hopefully providing useful "insight" to readers out there.
Lent starts in less than a week! I already have ideas forming for future posts....Stay tuned!
-J.
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